Zikora is a short story by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie is about Zikora, an unexpectedly pregnant DC lawyer whose boyfriend leaves her when he hears she is pregnant. Throw in the mix a disapproving, strong-willed Nigerian mother and you have the perfect cocktail for a story that delves into the heart of the difficult decisions and the work women are expected to make throughout their lives without the support that they deserve.
While the story does centre around a black, immigrant woman I feel that it is still a universal one that women globally are living every day regardless of where they live, their belief system or heritage.
At only 34 pages long this is a short story that packs a powerful punch. If you enjoy books that deal with the good, bad and the ugly of real-life or are looking to broaden your horizons into stories that bring in different cultural perspectives I recommend that you give Zikora a read.
Excert from Zikora by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie
All through the night my mother sat near me but never touched me. Once, I screamed, a short scream that lanced the air in the hospital room, and she said, “That’s how labor is,” in Igbo, and I wanted to say, “No shit,” but of course she didn’t understand colloquial Americanisms.
I had prepared for pain but this was not mere pain. It was something like pain and different from pain. It sat like fire in my back, spreading to my thighs, squeezing and crushing my insides, pulling downward, spiraling. It felt like the Old Testament. A plague. A primitive wind blowing at will, evil but purposelessly so, an overcoming in my body that didn’t need to be. Hour after hour of this, and yet the nurses said I wasn’t progressing.
“You’re not progressing,” the smaller nurse said as though it were my fault. The room felt too warm and then too cold. My arms itched, my scalp itched, and malaise lay over me like a mist. I wanted nothing touching my body. I yanked off my hospital gown, the flimsy blue fabric with its effete dangling ropes that gaped open at the back as if designed to humiliate. Naked, I perched on the edge of the bed and retched. Relief was impossible; everything was impossible. I stood up, sat down, and then I got on my hands and knees, my taut belly hanging in between. The clenching in my lower body came and went, random, irregular, like mean surprises. The bigger nurse was saying something. I shouted at her, “I need it now!”
“You’ll get the epidural soon,” she said.
The smaller nurse needed to check me. I rolled onto my back. An invasion of fingers. She was gloved and I couldn’t see her nails, but her false eyelashes, curving from her upper lids like black feathers, made me worry that her nails were long and sharp and would pierce through the latex and puncture my uterus. I tensed up.
“Bring your feet up and let your legs fall apart,” she said.
“Bring your feet up and let your legs fall apart.”
Let your legs fall apart. What did that even mean? How could legs fall apart? I began to laugh. From somewhere outside myself I heard the hysteria in my laughter. The nurse looked at me with the resigned expression of a person who had seen all the forms of madness that overtook birthing women lying on their backs with their bodies open to the world.
“You’re not progressing,” she said. Then came a wave of exhaustion, a tiredness limp and bloodless. I was leaving my body. I could die. I could die here, now, today, like Chinyere died in a fancy Lagos hospital that had flat-screen TVs in the labor ward. It was her third childbirth and she was walking, chatting with the nurses, stopping to breathe through each contraction, and then midsentence, she paused and collapsed and died. She was my cousin’s cousin. I had not liked her but I had mourned her. My heart was beating fast. I’d read somewhere that maternal mortality was higher in America than anywhere else in the Western world—or was it just higher for Black women? The subject had never really interested me. I’d felt at most a faraway concern, as though it was something that happened to other people. I should have paid more attention.
Now I would die in this hospital room with its rolling table and its picture of faded flowers on the wall, and become a tiny nameless dot in the data, and somebody somewhere would read a new report on maternal mortality and mildly wonder if it was Black women who died more often. My doctor came in looking unbearably calm.
“Dr. K, something is wrong. I just know something is wrong,” I said. My body was turning on me in spasms and wrenches I had never before known, each with a dark promise of its own return. Something had to be wrong; childbirth could not be this gratuitous and cruel.
“Nothing is wrong, Zikora, it’s all normal.”
If you are interested in another book that deals with an unexpected pregnancy, being a single mother and the family dynamics around that I suggest reading The Victory Garden.
This book is also available with audio narration by Adepero Oduye through Audible and Whispersync on Kindle.